“If you find yourself asking yourself (and your friends), “Am I really a writer? Am I really an artist?” chances are you are. The counterfeit innovator is wildly self-confident. The real one is scared to death.”― Steven Pressfield, The War of Art.
Every time I listen to Pressfield I hear something I needed to hear. I was so anxious going public with this, but I am totally empowered by the support I’m getting from everyone! All the kind words and encouragement have meant the world to me and reassured me that this is where I need to be. The joy of writing blog posts, updating hte page, waiting for my site registration to come in, my photoshoot Thursday. I can’t wait – this is all amazing for me and this excitement is how I know I’m on the right path.
Okay maybe not so much excitement for making a banner image for the page – that’s starting to get to me.
I think we all feel that when we’re starting out with something that’s really important to us. Leaving a trade to study counselling, I was so worried it wouldn’t work out. But I knew I had to do it – passion led me here and I wasn’t going to let fear get in the way. Fear, uncertainty and doubt are wily, creative and opportunistic – but they can be silenced.
When I started working in social & emotional wellbeing in a primary school, I was so anxious! My first proper job working in mental health, in a school. In a way, I’d made it, but heck was I scared. It got to me the whole way there. Out the front of the school, on my first day, I took a deep breath, and I chose to look at my fear in another way – curiosity of the unknown.
I walked into the school with an open mind and was ready to take on whatever they had. I’m still there a year and a half later, two days per week, ready to learn about what’s affecting today’s youth, and what I can do to help them. School is a very different place to how I remember it – so there’s a lot of learning to do for these kids.
Because, and there’ll be future posts on this, working with children and adolescents is an area I’m passionate about – getting them help, and skills early will change their lives for the better. Remember how I said studying counselling seems to be an invitation for people to tell you about their counsellor? Here’s a good one. I’ve heard plenty of stories about school counsellors and youth specialists who changed, if not straight-up saved lives. And that sounds like something really special to be a part of – giving young people hope, and the ability to pursue a future they never dreamed of.
Like I am now. ❤